For some reason, this whole week has been threatening to get drowned by this, um, wave of self-doubt.
May have something to do with not making it through an audition that I really wanted, and also M being gone for reservist the whole week (even the weekend! Awful). It’s funny how you’re really confronted with yourself once you have all the usual distractions of work, retail therapy (yes, I’m trying to be good), husbandly company and food (unhealthy makes me happy, but unhealthy also means sore throat) removed.
Having to deal with change in lifestyle, pace, comfort zone (or lack of!) has been pretty painful and also quite a shock to the system, but I can only hope it’ll help me grow. And one day I’ll look back at this time and understand why.
For now, there’s a new musical theatre course to look forward to tomorrow – it’s the first class and I’m actually really nervous.
I’m holding this quote near to my heart :